Week 4: The Great Depression

I really struggled in week 4. I was over the “healthy-eating” and missing the comfort of my old ways. I felt frustrated, less angry but more sad and depressed. The truth is, I wasn’t hungry and I actually felt good inside (my body); but I was holding onto old familiar habits and missing what used to be my ‘normal’ lifestyle.

I didn’t even want to eat those unhealthy foods and I didn’t crave anything; except the familiarity of things, foods, ways I knew.
I continued to meal prep and turn down offers of cake, fries, the usual ‘bad’ guys, but it was more something that I was doing automatically and sulking.

I felt like I just couldn’t bring myself to indulge, even when every other person around me was. I just could not give up all the weeks of good food choices, meal preparation and exercise. So I pushed through, with a heavy heart, more out of just sticking to my new routine; and maybe also knowing I just needed to make it to my Friday weigh-in. It was tough.

I made it; and I lost 0.9kg at my weigh in; and a significant loss of in my body measurements, which was a great boost to my mood.

I lost 6cm off my chest/back, 7.5cm off waist and 4.5cm off hips. It was just what I needed. I was really happy with these results after only 4 weeks and only 2 days of exercise a week, on quite a substantial eating plan. (I never feel hungry!).

I felt relieved that I hadn’t given up and I realised that it was definitely in “week 4” where I (in the past) may have been trying to lose weight and change my eating habits; and had given up time and time again.

It surprised me how difficult this week had been and how it had affected me emotionally.

Today, day 34, I feel so much better. I feel like the depression was like a mourning period. Surprisingly my new lifestyle somehow seems to have grown on me significantly over the last few days and is slowly starting to feel like my new normal.

Siham Arieff
Siham Arieff

Siham is a wellness writer, stroke survivor, mom of 3 and coffee lover on a health and fitness journey who recently relocated back home to Cape Town, South Africa.

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