Week 4: The Great Depression

I really struggled in week 4. I was over the “healthy-eating” and missing the comfort of my old ways. I felt frustrated, less angry but more sad and depressed. The truth is, I wasn’t hungry and I actually felt good inside (my body); but I was holding onto old familiar habits and missing what used to be my ‘normal’ lifestyle.

I didn’t even want to eat those unhealthy foods and I didn’t crave anything; except the familiarity of things, foods, ways I knew.
I continued to meal prep and turn down offers of cake, fries, the usual ‘bad’ guys, but it was more something that I was doing automatically and sulking.

I felt like I just couldn’t bring myself to indulge, even when every other person around me was. I just could not give up all the weeks of good food choices, meal preparation and exercise. So I pushed through, with a heavy heart, more out of just sticking to my new routine; and maybe also knowing I just needed to make it to my Friday weigh-in. It was tough.

I made it; and I lost 0.9kg at my weigh in; and a significant loss of in my body measurements, which was a great boost to my mood.

I lost 6cm off my chest/back, 7.5cm off waist and 4.5cm off hips. It was just what I needed. I was really happy with these results after only 4 weeks and only 2 days of exercise a week, on quite a substantial eating plan. (I never feel hungry!).

I felt relieved that I hadn’t given up and I realised that it was definitely in “week 4” where I (in the past) may have been trying to lose weight and change my eating habits; and had given up time and time again.

It surprised me how difficult this week had been and how it had affected me emotionally.

Today, day 34, I feel so much better. I feel like the depression was like a mourning period. Surprisingly my new lifestyle somehow seems to have grown on me significantly over the last few days and is slowly starting to feel like my new normal.

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Siham Arieff
Siham Arieff

Siham is a wellness writer, stroke survivor, mom of 3 and coffee lover on a health and fitness journey who recently relocated back home to Cape Town, South Africa.

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