Week 3 was bad. I was acting up like a little baby wanting what I can’t have. Even though I knew what the ‘bad foods’ were, I still wanted it. I looked at the mushrooms, ryevita, my filled fruit bowl with anger. I dismissed them, scowling; and desperately just wanted to eat something, anything (!!), that was not healthy.
It was like an internal struggle between the new focused, healthier, fitter person and my previous uncommitted, indulgent self. The latter had won this battle year after year.
This time I feel the struggle but also I feel much more in tune with my emotions now. I am allowing myself to feel it, acknowledging it and then pushing through. I was not about to let the past 3 weeks of clean eating and exercise go down the drain. Besides that, I feel good inside, my body feels lighter and fitter and stronger. I won the battle this time.
On my Friday weigh-in, I lost 1kg, to take my total to 4.9kg.
To be honest, I was a bit disappointed because I would have liked to see 5kg or just over 5kg, especially since I was already having a bad week. Thankfully I had signed up for the Aestheticss 11 body confidence event the next day.
The event was really great and we got a workout with the super-fit and inspiring Rushda Moosagie aka Rushtush who gave great advice; and a motivational talk from Caffeine and Fairy dust blogger Maz Halliday. Being around all these fit, strong, confident women made me feel good and I felt pumped again. On a side note, I felt I was considerably fitter because I could actually do the intense workout. If the event had been a month before that, there was no way I could have coped.
We were treated with a fabulous bag of goodies, the highlights being a 45 minute float for Float Zero and a few skin treatment vouchers from Aesthetics 11. I am going to treat myself to a float when I make it to 10kg (if I can wait that long!).